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#1453: testing

2012-02-10T12:28:00.001+08:00

Fill Me Up (Album Version)

#1452: The soft spot for you that hasn't gone away. Why?

2012-02-10T01:57:00.001+08:00

#1451: Is it ever?

2012-02-08T22:33:00.001+08:00

Is it ever insulting for anyone to say you look better in glasses? What if I say you look better under a mask?

#1450: Such a wonderful song!

2012-02-07T00:04:00.004+08:00

Fill up my lungs with air,
My voice with prayer
And my mouth with praise

Fill up my heart with song,
For the journey is long
And I need Your strength

Jesus Your love is more than enough,
Come and fill me, fill me up.

#1449: Today was a good Voix day

2012-02-03T00:20:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I run,
Sometimes I hide,
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
And treat you right
Baby all I need is time.

Sighh the group sang it so innocently, I melted.

#1448: We found love in a hopeless place

2012-01-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Evidently, I have pretty much abandoned this place.. It's week 2 and the past 2 weeks have been good. I have been thinking to myself that I have been really happy lately, which is so bizarre. I do look forward to going to school and meeting people, going for classes, meeting people after classes, going to church..

Is it my reignited faith in God? Maybe it's true that every human was built with a space that can only be filled by Him and finally after 8 years of skepticism, I find myself back here again.

But I won't dare say that my happiness is absolute. It is more of an aggregation of my happiness and disappointments, but obviously I have more things to be grateful for than to lament.

Today was obviously not very good because of the shit you did, but I suppose it's also good that it has liberated me by giving me an answer sooner than I thought. On the other hand, I'm happy for Joan!! :D Plus, it's her birthday! Hehehe. And I got to satisfy my caesar salad craving. (Argh, so expensive!)

Had I been the same person I was around 5 years ago, today would have been a really really sad day. Because I'd mull over rubbish and be anti-social.

I need to remain grateful for the good, the bad and the ugly in my life. After all, this is 2012. No one knows what's gonna happen.

#1447: School has commenced

2012-01-13T01:03:00.002+08:00

This week was a good first week.. even though I must say I have the worst timetable anyone on Earth can have. I'm so bad at planning timetables.. -.-

Thursday, today.

It's my free day today, my one out of two free days - think 3dww, 4-day weekend. Got my magical prop notes from D in the morning, had lunch with S at a newly-discovered food court because the POMO mixed rice stall was too packed, met J in the photocopy room where I ended up playing her really stupid but fun Nintendo 3DS (to her enjoyment, of course hahaha), sat at benches till J had evo psych (to which I turned down her invitation to join or it'd be the 2nd time prof sees me in class this week LOL such a stalker.. NOT). Met ZH for a while before he went off for tea. Read TWC for a bit before I got myself some bubble tea and some shopping. Then Voix. And supper. :D

It's awesome when school's in 'cos it isn't isolating. :)

#1446: Backbeats & Delilah!!

2011-12-30T23:38:00.001+08:00

Backbeat's beatboxer sang!

#1445: Back! But briefly?

2011-12-30T15:05:00.003+08:00

This holidays, I've accomplished much. I finished reading 2 books (Superfreakonomics & Payback - Margaret Atwood) and finished watching all 5 seasons of Gossip Girl.

I guess it's quite contrasting, my choice of books and drama. Yet, I really don't think Gossip Girl is as Frivolous as most people think it is. I can probably write a GP essay on the value of Gossip Girl. Hmm but then again, maybe not HAHA. Mostly over periods of time, which I often categorise as either a holiday or a semester (duh), I can point my finger at things that have contributed to my growth and this time round, Gossip Girl is easily that thing for this holidays. (Disclaimer: Not that I barely did anything this holidays!)

I can't believe that this 6-week long holiday is coming to an end. This is probably my last ever relaxing holiday in my life. :( And I'm extremely grateful for everyone who has been part of my life, who continues being part of my life and has made a difference to this December. For one, Christmas this year was special, not exactly made special by a special someone.. but technically yes haha.

My New Year Resolution for 2011: Keep my nails unpainted. HAHA

#1444: Gossip Girl Season 2 :p

2011-12-14T14:58:00.001+08:00

Hooked onto this song the first time I heard it in GG S2E10!

#1443: Come Home - OneRepublic

2011-12-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

Gossip Girl has reminded me how much of a sucker I am for romance. And how much I cannot bear to see couples fight.

#1442: OMG NATE why are you so dreamy?? Awww

2011-12-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

#1441: Holidaze

2011-12-09T13:41:00.002+08:00

The past week has been fun, though not as eventful as the week before. First weeks of holidays are always the most tiring I guess and I usually find myself torn between the need/want to rest or play, considering that exams have just ended.

My Voix commitments have picked up once again, but I'm having more fun each time I go down for practice so I guess the initial inertia is wearing off. I'm not too sure if that's a good thing considering I'm contemplating a change in CCA. Joan suggested rock climbing haha! I think that's a brilliant idea lol, except that I have weak arms but training can change that.. Right?

We went to JB last Wednesday and I was frankly pretty excited 'cos I haven't seen these people for like a week since school was out. Haha I sound so clingy but really, we didn't talk much during the exam period. JB was fun! And quite expectedly, not much shopping was actually done, to the relief of the guys. But it was great to be in a foreign land, I guess, undistracted by technology and with a certain potential for exploration. (Admittedly, I was rather paranoid and so was my mum who was really against us leaving the shopping complex haha.)

And hm I've started watching GG again because I'm immensely bored. The plot is moving too slowly but I guess it doesn't hurt to just watch something because the people and things in the show are beautiful. After all, I just need something to block out my thoughts and emotions at the moment anyway.

Oh yes, I cut my fringe short so now they are short side-swept bangs which were quite a disaster on the first day but it became tons better after that so I am seriously considering keeping it this way. I always want to do something to my hair. -.- I was even considering cutting it short but no, patience patience patience.

#1440: 那些年，我们一起追的女孩

2011-12-06T20:27:00.002+08:00

It's been a week since I caught the movie and cried subconsciously over it. But I only got to really think about its significance today when I went out with PX. :) To be honest, I initially thought the movie was plain and bland because it was a true story that was once playing in real time yet it was exactly what makes it beautiful; the fact that these things happened/can happen in real life and that love burns, grows, fizzles out and rekindles again made me see that there is no time limit for a fairytale ending. The true test should be whether you still feel the same when you stand next to him many years later, when you recall the passions of yesteryears and feel the impulse of the moment. The movie was a show about missed opportunities, when all the world has your back but you just can't produce the spark to get the fire going.

Anyway our outing today was awesome! Even though we never made it to Starbucks at Rochester Park because.. it's at Rochester Park which, to my misfortune, is NOT in the Botanic Gardens. I swear I saw someone comment on fb that there was a new Starbucks outlet in the BOTANIC GARDENS.. Bleah, it was an hour away from Orchard Rd by foot, somewhere in the vicinity of ACJC. Hence, very evidently a good few kilometres off Orchard Rd = not walking distance on a sweltering hot day like today.

#1439: Major worries, minor issues

2011-12-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

It takes so little to disturb me. :(

#1438: Schrodinger's Friendship

2011-12-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

The Russian Rocket Reaction episode of Big Bang Theory is really funny!! Geeky jokes galore hehehe.

#1437: A Judge's Sense of Humour

2011-11-29T13:49:00.001+08:00

"Living the best years of one's life with the Sword of Damocles hanging over one's head is, in itself, strong punishment."

Judgements can be so funny when judges are dramatic. Ask me again, why am I reading law when the exams are over?

#1436: Exciting Dinner today made everything better!

2011-11-29T01:58:00.002+08:00

#1435: YR2SEM1 DOWN

2011-11-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

Consti was over today. I think I should have elaborated more on some stuff. Sigh, why do I have so many regrets this finals?? Why did I have to panic so badly during some papers that I just start writing rubbish?

Anyway I'm done with this semester. Headed to Orchard for the first time in a while.. (Ok actually not really, I went over impulsively during FA report week to get my laptop case.) I didn't get anything today, which is normal considering how broke I've been. Even stranger is the fact that I actually didn't lay my eyes on anything except maybe a pair of black court shoes from ALDO which I don't need - it's a purchase I can NEVER justify because I already have a pair of black court shoes, and these things aren't fancy so why would I ever need another pair? OH YAH I SPOTTED A WALLET I'D BUY HEHE :D I can't believe I've stuck with my current wallet for over a year seriously, since I used to be rather picky over these things. Stuck with my current pencil case for an equally long time too. Hmmm growing up?

And I feel too lazy to make any holiday plans actually. Right now, I only have going out with Cheryl Teo on Monday and hanging out with schoolmates on Wednesday to celebrate the end of exams on my schedule. To mark the beginning of my days of rest, I'm going to Msia tomorrow with mummy to visit my grandparents. :) And if you don't already know, it also entails me sleeping on the couch the whole afternoon and soaking in the slow passing of time in this awesome foreign land. Simple pleasures.

#1434: 后来

2011-11-22T21:26:00.001+08:00

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

- Marilyn Monroe

#1433: The Monday of HellToCome

2011-11-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

Today was a day of good food. Good (communal) meals - an excuse to hang out during times when isolation is your best friend.

We had 2x Full Works and Banana & Milk Chocolate pancakes shared among 5 of us today for brunch. Gosh I really love the pancakes at Food for Thought!

Then I had chicken karaage don for dinner at Sunshine (again) for the first time! It was pretty good haha. Actually, anything with egg is good.

And right now, I'm sorta stressed for my 3-hr long paper tomorrow MORNING.

What is this obscure module called CLS? -.-

#1432: Don't know what I spent this week doing, but I spent it happily

2011-11-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

#1431: Lonely out of necessity

2011-11-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

I must say, study week is the biggest bitch to my social life ever. I talk about 0.01 times I do on normal days and I eat about 1.5 times I do on normal days. Grow fat only, 1.5 times the child-bearing hips aiyo.

"A woman shall be seen and not heard." --> Exemplifies study week. I literally gain weight (become more visible) and shut up.

Anyway BOSS has been BTFO (bugging the * out) of me recently 'cos of my stupid stunt..

DroppedFinForLaw&KenaSniped,CannotBidForFinance,DeadEndGGXX. Enough said.

I dropped a mail to those behind BOSS yesterday only to have it forwarded to those who were really behind BOSS today. Dialled them a couple of times this afternoon and I didn't get a response. Went down to Admin Building to ~~Complain~~. I wish..

I was meek as a mouse.

"Oh, you really can't do anything about it? It's urgent! BOSS 1B Window 1 closes tomorrow morning... Huh seriously, there's nothing else you can do?"

"Sorry, the whole department is on leave. So-and-so will likely be back tomorrow because she's on medical leave."

~~"WTF BUT THE WINDOW CLOSES TOMORROW MORNING!!!!! :'("~~

(My life isn't quite as dramatic as I imagine it to be.)

Went back to my laptop and found yet another email indicating my visit to the Office, forwarded to yet another person.

Sat around and sulked. And studied.

#1430: Guess what I'm done, writing you songs

2011-11-12T01:06:00.004+08:00

Haha no I'm not half that creepy/sweet but I like Jack's Mannequin. :)

2359 of 11 November 2011 marked the end of our FA report. :) 10%'s worth of grades for 30%'s worth of work. Alright actually it wasn't a tough project but just madly tedious, until we found our miracle database, that is. But I'm proud of it hehe.

Sad thing is, I admit that I missed all the 11:11 11/11/11s I will ever get in my lifetime. My wishes will be left unfulfilled. :( Sadgirl1991.

Anyway,

To know or not to know, that is the question. Frankly, I really wanna know and the reason behind that is so that upon knowing, I will then know when to stop. But is it true? Will I really? And all of a sudden, the allure of information lost its glamour. It is really scary what a small piece of information can do to you, isn't it? As much as we don't have the best of memories (as in power), it is hardly easy or even possible to un-know/un-learn something, especially something of such magnitude. Emotional magnitude. And very possibly, it could infiltrate you, like a virus to a computer, and just rip you apart and tear down your faculties; one moment you're fine, and the next, you could be shredded to incoherence.

It's taunting. I'm not sure I can handle that. But I'm sure I cannot handle not knowing more.

So come what may.

Accomplishment of the day/month: Didn't drink coffee today. LOL

#1429: Lifehouse Love

2011-11-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

I was listening to Blind a lot more actually. So masochistic to listen to songs that make me ache that little bit LOL!

Anyway I love this new cream I'm applying 'cos it smells so nice!! Like ION Orchard HAHA!

#1428: I'm here to help you notice the rainbow

2011-11-05T22:27:00.003+08:00

I love sweet lyrics like that. :) I wanna be that kind of person haha, though I tend to be far too cynical, cold, practical.. not cotton candy or rainbow-esque. But really, when you need, I'm here to help you notice the rainbow. :)

On a completely different note:

Maybe I can read you if I stop evaluating and re-evaluating my thoughts and start believing myself. Stop convincing myself otherwise and stop protecting myself. Stop overthinking.. Stop wondering, stop fearing.

This past week has been happysad. It was stressful with bouts of consolation here and there. FUCKING MISSED MY INTERNSHIP TALK. The first few days were undeniably terrible. But I'm glad I survived it. 3 more weeks!

And I can't wait to share this funny story with you but oh well. /:

WTS WHY ARE ALL MY EXAMS 3 HOURS LONG? How to do 3 hrs of FA, tell me? And lobo? And CLS? And consti? I will die..

#1427: Cold

2011-10-31T10:50:00.002+08:00

Maybe it takes a stressful circumstance to see how I'm really like? 'Cos vulnerability is really my middle name and you won't see it till you burst my bubble or break down my walls.

#1426: The way to my heart

2011-10-31T00:21:00.003+08:00

Is though my mind and my stomach

Haha I realise I can't decide what my love languages are, now that I think about it. I used to think it was quality time until I experienced the fuzziness I felt from touch which has subsequently seemed more like acts of service 'cos I feel exceptionally touched when people do things/buy food for me without me asking.

This is quite a meaningless entry that has nothing much to do with the title anyway LOL.

I've been living with a dark cloud over my head these couple of days actually, partly due to PMS (never used to admit it), partly due to stress, partly due to other things. When I mean dark cloud, I don't mean that I was about to explode in anger (ok maybe angst lol) but I guess it's just this nagging feeling that follows you around as you go about your daily routine (or not) and you just wanna go "STOP FOLLOWING ME AROUND DAMNIT!" but you realise there's nothing behind you lol.

My friends have been here for me and I can't be any more appreciative of that. The highlight of this weekend was, of course, none other than S's deepavali party. (Yes, from now on I'm gonna anonymise everyone. Privacy ftw!) Good food, good company, good jokes & wit, what more can I ask for?

I'm glad that I managed to make real friends in SMU after all and I do feel so blessed and humbled. :')

#1425: What song will you play at your wedding?

2011-10-31T00:06:00.002+08:00

The Story - Brandi Carlile

All of these lines across my face

Tell you the story of who I am

So many stories of where I've been

And how I got to where I am

But these stories don't mean anything

When you've got no one to tell them to

It's true, I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops

Swam all across the ocean blue

I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules

But baby I broke them all for you

Because even when I was flat broke

You made me feel like a million bucks

You do

I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth

It's hiding the words that don't come out

And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed

They don't know my head is a mess

No, they don't know who I really am

And they don't know what

I've been through like you do

And I was made for you

All of these lines across my face

Tell you the story of who I am

So many stories of where I've been

And how I got to where I am

But these stories don't mean anything

When you've got no one to tell them to

It's true, I was made for you

Though it'd be perfect if the song were less noisy? It's an acquired taste haha.

#1424: Right Now

2011-10-25T19:06:00.002+08:00

Today's supposed to be a happy day. Because it's slack and I've accomplished everything I needed to, including my resume. Yet while sitting here, listening to music, resting from the tedium of the past week and the need to keep doing something, waiting for dinner, I feel that this has been so unhealthy for me, I'm like a druggie chasing the dragon. Temporary highs have defined this semester. I think I've lost sight of what it's like to be contented..

Now playing: Look What You've Done - Jet (how apt)

Coldplay isn't helping either.

#1423: New song, thanks Bhuvan :)

2011-10-23T00:48:00.003+08:00

I'm about to lose my mind

You've been gone for so long, I'm running out of time

I need a doctor, call me a doctor

I need a doctor, doctor to bring me back to life.

#1422: A Forgotten Favourite

2011-10-22T01:56:00.001+08:00

Travis :)

Just need to get closer, closer

Lean on me now, Lean on me now.

#1421: Blahblahblahblah

2011-10-20T19:07:00.004+08:00

The couple who entered a gsr in front of me is extremely suspicious LOL.

Ah there's so much going on of late. LOBO report due on Monday, FA consultation on Monday, FA test this Wednesday, LOBO presentation this Thursday, consti wiki article due soon..

This week was crazily packed. And there was so much to be angry over the gig we did on Wednesday night. And so much to be angsty over tomorrow's 3-hr consti makeup class but this will pay off next week. :D Clearly a deferred lesson wheee. I should stop making FA references like how people speak fragments of jap as beginners. So lame. :(

I went for a haircut today and it's much neater now! :D

I should get down to typing my lobo report now sigh.

#1420: Thanks for making tonight so much more bearable

2011-10-14T02:46:00.004+08:00

I thought this moment will never come.. I finished my research paper and I don't plan to edit it anymore!! :D It's 2.47am now and I'm just gonna sit around and soak in this wave of calm that has descended upon me. I have never been happier to start studying for other things like LOBO and CLS. (There must be some psychological reasoning behind this. Hint: Another method to slavedrive your employees is to give them an impossible task to do while delegating other small chores to them, I'm pretty sure they'd be more than happy to complete the small chores.)

I've not slept earlier than 2.30am all of this week. I peeled my nail, now it hurts. :(

1.5 hrs of consti tomorrow, as I mentioned to YK just now, I'd much rather sit in a cave with lions. It isn't the field, it's the prof.

This was amazing. I heard it through earphones and the harmonies are godsent. Time to train my mixed voice.

I LOVE YOU DELILAH!!! :D

Wts I kept ctrl-s-ing as I typed this entry.

And thanks Yao for offering me the med shirt! :)

#1419: Yr2Sem1 Recess Week

2011-10-11T21:05:00.002+08:00

To paint or not to paint (my nails), that is the question.

Today (no it isn't 'cos today is the Tuesday after recess week lol, I'm late) marks the end of the recess week. Fml. I haven't gotten anything done over these 5 days.

It began with me freaking out over my research paper on Monday after a weekend of lazing around and fun (Dealers' Choice and expensive but salty ramen with Cheryl Teo). The freaking out was really bad when it dawned on me during tuition on Monday that my 2 hours could have been better spent working on the paper. This was followed by me being extremely uptight on the bus ride to school for Voix. But thank goodness, my mood became tons better after singing and soaking in the fun that is Voix. :D I felt almost schizophrenic at that point in time and I was really beginning to question my sanity. -.- The change from sad/emo shit to euphoric happiness was just too drastic, I was like on drugs?

Tuesday was tons of socialising in general I guess? I set out with the good intention to draw up a framework for my paper and actually type a few lines and get things going. I did get most of what I had intended to do done but I think I had been too easy on myself. -.- And thennn multi-coloured xlbs at Paradise Dynasty!! It's exciting food lol. We should never ever know what we put in our mouths. :p

Wednesday was just FA meeting and our paid gig at Ritz Carlton. :) Voix seriously bonds best when we go for gigs hahaha. Just scrape camp and slavedrive the club?

Thursday and Friday - VOIX CAMP!!!! :D I REALLY REALLY ENJOYED THE IMPROMPTU SINGING :D We should just sit around all day mashing songs, harmonising all we want~ I love to sing ahh I wish I had a better voice. :p

Saturday and Sunday - Rushed research paper until I wanted to puke.

Evidently this entry disintegrated as I wrote 'cos I'm still writing my research paper. Wtf, it's been 8 days. I concluded that I don't hate consti, I just hate how it's taught and by association, whoever teaches it.

#1418: Love talking. And love talking to you. How?

2011-10-09T17:04:00.001+08:00

#1417: Why did I get Daphne and Derby? Now that I finally have it, I don't know which songs are good :S

2011-10-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

#1416: Grey's Season 8

2011-10-02T01:45:00.004+08:00

I haven't started watching Grey's Season 8 and probably won't be doing that any time soon 'cos it's too intense for term time. But nice song :) Credits to Joel for sharing! :)

#1415: A new musical discovery in a loooong time. Dry spell?

2011-09-28T00:34:00.005+08:00

New Discovery^^

Yish:
on the other hand, i could laugh at the application of foundation at our prom..
Me:
/:
damn
i think my makeup was a disaster
i'm such a late bloomer lol
Yish:
haha but you seem to prove hans christian anderson's point with a vengeance :P
Me:
omg i've come to a pt that i can't understand you lol
simple english
Yish:
haha the ugly duckling mate

This has got to be the most indirect compliment I've ever received?! hahaha

If birthdays aren't meant to be celebrated, shouldn't you just die?

#1414: Someone Like You - Adele

2011-09-27T02:10:00.008+08:00

I heard that you're settled down

That you found a girl and you're married now.

I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

This was posted on the Voix fb page and we're supposed to sing as expressively as Adele. (I love the Superman group!!) This triggered my goosebumps, like totally haha. Guess I am beginning to appreciate this song. Haha the piano accompaniment sounds like Secrets - OneRepublic. :)

And on a completely separate note, I really appreciate the people around me who know how to care. Nice people are underrated.

Additionally, It is rather timely that today is the real Day 1 after my quite-a-mega rant this afternoon. I find it quite regretful that I have so quickly lost sight of what I could find endearing about you. There's just nothing left. And then I ask myself why I even bothered typing this haha.

#1413: A Relaxing Birthday

2011-09-25T20:40:00.003+08:00

Contrary to popular belief, I wasn't going to drink on Sunday, though admittedly I don't quite come across as a drinker.. Or do I? All you bad influences out there!

Had an awesome time with Joo though we almost got the venue all wrong. LOL! I think the beauty of today was that I had a valid reason to throw aside my everything and just spend time idling around doing what I love with a friend I love.

But fuck I'm 20 already. :(

Tragic is the irony of trying to play it cool when you are head over heels in love with someone lol. I mean "head over heels in love" in the impulsive and frivolous sense hahaha.

#1412: The Sing-Off's Delilah sings Grenade

2011-09-21T23:17:00.001+08:00

SO GOOD OMG. GOOSEBUMPS

#1411: "Gosh I totally just grew out of my teenage love phase"

2011-09-20T03:16:00.003+08:00

Today I described to Bhuvan a love that I've never described before. One that's stable, patient, deep, kind, profound, irreplaceable, lasting.. And for a moment, I froze and was rudely shocked by the fact that I might have just grown out of my "teenage love phase". (Fuck this, I'm turning 20 this Sunday.)

Or maybe I've just fallen in love with yet another idea of love.

Secretly: OMG I'M NOT GONNA BE A TEEN ANYMORE. :'(

______________________

Another thing about today. I can't believe that after a year (well, kinda) we have mutual friends. And I also can't believe I met X in school, a mutual acquaintance I removed from fb since then, and I was hoping badly X won't recognise me which I think is safely the case. The world is so small. I need to seek refuge in..

Financial Accounting LOL.

Yeah I'm not funny anymore haha.

And no, you don't know what the story behind this is until you ask me.

Quote of the Day goes to Polly: "got chemistry, stars falling in the background, birds singing in the trees and hell lot of cliche love fairytale shit?" Love the tone.

#1410: Not a fan of 21 Guns but this is so good

2011-09-20T02:46:00.000+08:00

#1409: I'll Be Your Love - Yoshiki (featuring Nicole Scherzinger)

2011-09-17T22:29:00.004+08:00

Haha this song makes me nostalgic. I love how her voice is so perfect for this song. I love how the verses conjure a warmth inside me. Even when I'm all angsty over my consti presentation.

Skip to 1:00 for the song!

I'll be your love, I'll be your light

I'll never make you feel, feel alone.

Don't you cry

Over the past

Some days might be gray

And dreary

Not easy to leave

To leave it behind

Till the rain stops in silence

I'll be there to hold your heart

Sung by the same person who sang Don't Hold Your Breath lol (which I also like). Why so talented and hot?

#1408: I love my new nail colour! :D OPI's My Address is Hollywood

2011-09-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

#1407: Reasons Why You Shouldn't Be Friends With Your Ex

2011-09-13T21:17:00.002+08:00

From Thought Catalog:

You shared everything together. They saw you cry for no reason at all at two o’clock in the morning. They know about the issues you have with your parents, they picked out the olives in your salad because they knew you hated them. They may have sucked on your balls, for God’s sake. They went down on your vagina! So why settle for a watered down version of what you used to have? Every time you see them you’re just going to think, “I sucked on your balls and now we’re drinking iced tea and talking about the weather.” No thanks.

It’ll be tortuous, especially if you still want to sleep with them. You’re no longer allowed to do so. You own no more stocks on their body. You’ve been bought out. As you sit there actively trying to be friends, you’re going to grow resentful about the fact that you can longer kiss them. Just a little while ago, you could do whatever you wanted to their body and their face, and now it’s the one thing you’re not allowed to touch. You might just scream at them, “Why can’t I just touch your penis/vagina anymore?! It used to be mine to touch. Give it back!” I wouldn’t actually recommend saying that though because you might be called crazy.

It will hurt too much. Listen, there’s no shame in not being an evolved grown up. No one said that we had to be friends with our exes. We can give into our insane feelings and say, “Screw you! You hurt me badly and I have no interest in shooting the breeze with you. We only do it so we can pat ourselves on the back afterwards and I don’t want to give you that satisfaction.”

If they were the one who broke your heart, hanging out with them is going to make you feel so undesirable. You’ll try to look really cute when you go on your friendship date, in hopes that it will make them want you again. They’ll say, “Oh my god. That tank top you’re wearing has reminded me why I fell in love with you. Let’s get back together!” No, it’s not going to happen. You could go to these things looking like absolute garbage or royalty and it wouldn’t make a lick of difference. They’ve already fallen out of love with you and that won’t change if you’re having a good hair day.

Some exes we can be friends with. Some we can get lunch with and not think about the fact that we once licked their genitalia. But some exes are a “NEVER” in the friendship category. These are the people we hurt the most or who hurt us the most. And it’s okay to say “See you later!” It doesn’t make us immature, it makes us smart. If being an adult means subjecting ourselves to pure torture with someone who used to love us, then call me Peter Goddamn Pan.

#1406: Checklist for the Age 19

2011-09-13T21:06:00.001+08:00

From Thought Catalog:

Decide that you will not be jaded. Be indecisive about most things but certain about this. Say to yourself, ‘I will not be a jaded twenty-something, I will have self-respect, I will become a minimalist and move to New York and I will never complain, I will recognize sweetness and I will make it last.’ Mid-mantra, experience near-fatal blows to your beliefs about the integrity of the world and your place in it. Arrive at realizations that everyone else has already reached, crude truisms you’d idealistically dismissed or ignored. Money is power, pretty is good, sexism is the status quo. Adults don’t know what they’re doing, most mistakes matter, and you will never be cool. Try to be realistic without growing disillusioned. Bite the insides of your cheeks until they bleed.
Avoid telling strangers your age. Wish that you were 20 already, because when you are 20 people will take your emotions seriously, they will take your ‘work’ seriously, and they will take you seriously. Simultaneously take great solace in the fact that no one takes you seriously at all. Find comfort in the reality that you are still a teenager and glaring errors are still permitted and perfection is still suspicious. On low nights, take shelter in lowered expectations and fulfilled clichés and bad alternative rock. Recognize that once you turn 20, no one will describe you as a prodigy, no one will call you ‘exceptional’ or ‘advanced’ or ‘gifted’ or ‘special,’ Craig Ferguson will not say “Wow, and she’s only 19!” when the entrance music dies down. Master the art of feeding yourself consolatory nonfat yogurt while wrapped in blankets and reading things on the Internet. Let your eyes grow wide.
Begin a relationship with a person who feels more ‘real’ than your high school sweetheart, whose words sound heavier and more trustworthy, whose touch feels more intentional. Keep your feet on the ground. In an attempt at full disclosure, ensure that he sees you at your absolute worst. Be honest. Approach love consciously, in real time. Do not drift. Do not write poetry. Use words like ‘solid’ instead of ‘dreamy.’ Consider the concept of semi-permanence. Linger, savor, know now that there is no rush. Use your past as a parachute, then discard with metaphors and, for the first time, love someone in concrete terms. Feel like you could maybe spend your life with this person. Mail your parents a 20th anniversary card and realize that you have no idea what that means, no concept of how much ‘spending a life’ costs. Love on a day-to-day basis instead. Build slowly. Learn that this is more than enough.
Panic. Frequently.
Lack the chutzpah to drop out of your elite university, where you are currently pursuing a degree that entitles others to prematurely inform you of their latte order. When people over the age of 28 ask you what you will do after graduation, answer honestly. When they give you a look, that look, modify your reply. Turn the dial in the direction of money. Visualize corporate offices with potted ferns and floor-to-ceiling windows and expense accounts and fast elevators. Keep adapting your answer until their eyes mock less, until they nod, until they smile. Feel deep-seated despair when you hear the words ‘law school.’ Know that you are on track for successes that will always be secondary to that thing you really wanted but were too cowardly to chase. Imagine yourself surrounded by Excel sheets on 40-inch iMac screens and feel terror. Then, as the conversation drifts, remember that you are not a coward, that you are invincible because you are still 19, and tell them that you will [do that thing that you are not afraid to do], that you will make people feel less lonely, that that is what you are going to do. Do not recoil at the sight of raised eyebrows. Do not let pity sting.
Try to be a better person. A better son, a better daughter. Try very, very hard. Try to express the respect you have for your parents. You’ve begun, if only tangentially, to understand the sacrifices they made, the lives they didn’t lead so that you could live yours, so that you could read books, so that you could explore boredom and restlessness instead of real suffering. Feel zero desire to raise a child. Try to ask nothing more of your parents. Still need money, still need health insurance, still need their approval. Cringe at your dependence and immense good fortune. Realize how lucky you got. Be grateful. Try to be worthy.
Anticipate existential crises like screams heard from the back end of roller-coaster waiting lines. Have a conversation with a woman in her late-twenties who declares she’s still ‘just a kid.’ Decide that the only thing worse than being jaded is being in denial.
Get excited about things like jogging and dinner parties and rooftop gardens and adopted mutts and raw foods. Start training for a 5K. Throw together an evening with sliced tomatoes and Charles Shaw and medium-rare, Forman-grilled steaks. Climb onto the roof of a two-story academic building at night. Visit the websites of animal shelters, point and click and say ‘that’s the one.’ Develop neurotic habits when choosing produce at Trader Joe’s. Craft convincing imitations of a world you’ve yet to enter. Exist in a perpetual state of preparation for a life you’ve yet to earn.
Forgive. Forget. Fake it. Chin up. Wear lipstick, make lists, make sure your voicemail isn’t full. Mix protein shakes, send timely thank you notes, sip drinks more slowly, stare at adults’ eyebrows, smile without dimples, develop perfect posture. Be gracious, be kind, eliminate self-pity. Look in the mirror and shift your internal monologue from ‘How do I look?’ to ‘This is my face,’ from ‘What the hell am I doing?’ to ‘This is my life.’ Capitalize your emails, read the news, walk briskly, stay focused, and never, ever let on that you are somewhat lost and sometimes lonely and so completely confused (and would someone please just let me know what it is I’m supposed to do next, where exactly I’m supposed to go–). Just keep going. Go, and do not stop.
Every so often, you will need to scream. That’s okay. That’s allowed. Scream. After all, you’re just a kid. You’re only 19.

#1405: DJ Got Us Falling In Love is really an awesome song

2011-09-12T01:45:00.005+08:00

Albeit trashy, defining of alcohol-abusing days (not mine). I'll not be able to imagine myself listening to this on my mp3 player when I was younger. Why have I grown to like stuff I'd never imagine liking back then? It's so inexplicable and sometimes I find my affairs (in the general sense of the word) so lacking in meaning. Now, I'm less choosy, less ~~judgmental~~ (I've never been quite a judge, maybe the word is discerning?) discerning. And then I'd find myself in shit and realise I'm ok being in shit 'cos such is life. It isn't all glory and glam, it's also about finding yourself in where you'd least expect to be.

And tonight I find myself still talking to someone whom I might adore, who talks to me, who can almost piss me off, whom I'm not sure wants to talk to me, whom I convince myself I'm absolutely ready to stop talking to, who also doesn't read this space which is perfectly fine by me. I'm right where I'd least expect myself to be 'cos my rational/logical self says this is all not worth it but guess what's stopping me?

DISCLAIMER: EH I'M OK, JUST A BIT DRAMA ONLY. haha :p

#1404: The Real Day 1

2011-09-11T19:53:00.003+08:00

#1403: Ooh Natasha Bedingfield is not bad

2011-09-10T12:10:00.002+08:00

First, Jet Lag then No Mozart (which JH thought I'd like which I did lol) and now this! ('cos I got the album)

#1402: It's Accrual World (It's a Cruel World)

2011-09-09T23:00:00.003+08:00

Oh don't we love puns? Haha can't wait to get my Asoc tee to wear to LOBO/FA? If you've been taking note of my status updates, you'd know that in Miles v Clarke, "accountants are the witch doctors of the modern world".

Anyway I've been keeping busy this week.

Watched Crazy, Stupid Love. It was pretty awesome and I really loved how it was directed. Though I'm an utter cynic when it comes to love, I was really touched during the scene of the phone call. Also, I still don't believe that what was supposed to be a sex night would turn out otherwise; Only happens in movies.

Bhuvan's Birthday Celebration. :)

Visited NUS. What can I say? I love the academic environment there haha. And I should have informed people that I was going down, it slipped my mind. /: Talked to old friends, made new friend, pretended that I was an NUS student albeit one who was too overdressed.

Sports Fiesta 2011 was today. Haven't sweated so much since.. forever? Got this dri-fit tee (my first ever lol seriously) that says "I play sports at SMU therefore I'm cool." Uncharacteristic of me. I've never played so aggressively all my life. But gosh, I'm so unfit it's not funny. :(

Had dinner with new friends. Learnt to use my iPhone better. Cracked JC/faculty jokes.

Crashed Asoc Day for free beer.

Wrong Lyrics of the Week: Shut Up and Die - Rihanna

FA test next week. Gotta balance the sheet like my life depends on it. 10% ~~only~~.

#1401: Alive again

2011-09-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

http://formspring.me/spooked

#1400: From Thought Catalog

2011-09-07T01:05:00.001+08:00

Compare your ex to someone new and feel relieved
Compare your ex to someone new and feel regret
Go on a terrible date that convinces you that you’ll be alone forever
Go on a series of promising dates and tell your friends this “might be it”
Let the holidays serve as a reminder of the last time you had someone to spend them with
Spend the night drinking and dancing and kissing; walk home at 6 AM and feel content to be alone with the sunrise
Listen to love songs that remind you of no one; feel indifferent about feeling indifferent
Listen to songs that remind you of the past and cry in the fetal position
Be enough for yourself
Do the things your past relationships discouraged; be the person your past relationships suppressed
Feel woefully behind and kind of nervous every time a friend gets engaged
Forget how hard it is to watch your relationship dissolve when doling out advice
Get defensive when your relationship non-status becomes a topic of conversation at Thanksgiving
Sleep diagonal because you can
Feel high after a successful first date
Wonder if you can fall in love with someone despite the absence of an initial spark
Make out with someone for no reason other than you’re both single and attractive
Date people who are completely wrong for you because you clearly don’t know who’s right for you
Get drunk and mentally forgive people your sober mind can’t absolve
Discover one day that you’ve stopped looking and started living; let that make you smile

#1399: Complicated

2011-09-07T00:27:00.002+08:00

Our lives are made in these small hours

These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate

I think I grew this semester. I think I grow when I feel. Scary but true.

So today, I need to thank everyone who have so touched me this year.

And how can I forget? HAPPY BIRTHDAY BHUVAN! :)

#1398: Day 1 :)

2011-09-05T15:01:00.002+08:00

I'm strangely comfortable with the unspoken arrangement and I'm glad that I'm not the one making the choice. 'Cos I know that if I were given the choice, I'd take the path of least resistance and.. subsequently fuck myself up. Thanks! :)

Wtf

#1397: Yr2Sem1Wk3

2011-09-05T10:15:00.001+08:00

CLS Presentation on Saturday, followed by 3 hours of consti
Stayed up till 4+am on Friday night to compile the slides and almost got a major heart attack at 3am when I found out that two of my groupmates have 28 and 39 slides each. At that point, I thought I couldn't sleep that night.

Anyway I have no idea how the presentation turned out. I was extremely nervous when my turn came, which was really unexpected 'cos CLS is a fluff mod. :S And suddenly, it didn't feel like a fluff mod!

EVE 2011 at Velvet
Voix won Best Vocal CCA, though EVE was generally boring. I didn't have a lot of food since most of the macaron mountains were emptied when I reached. At least I had a rose macaron :D my favourite! :) And there was classy bite-sized food that can't fill your stomach. Also, there was free-flow of wine and beer. Headed to Phuture for free, thanks to Citibank (looks like I don't need a Clear Card anymore since the Clear Card quota was reached way before mine was. Useless lol). Tons happened, but it wasn't as fun a night as I imagined? And I could have met Yao who was there too. :(

1 Oct Dealers' Choice with Cheryl Teo
Finally got the tickets from SISTIC the other day! (Actually it was the day immediately after I did the necessary paperwork for the promotion, yes I'm damn kiasu and afraid that the Cat 1 tickets will be sold out.) The queue was a bitch. I chose 1st row circle seats over stall, I do hope I made a good choice!

Going to NUS next Thursday (tentatively)
If all goes well, Jiahong and I will be there lol.

Milo Captains' Ball on Friday
Finally found my running shoes. Hope we win! :D

#1396: Song Beneath The Song - Maria Taylor ♥

2011-09-02T10:06:00.001+08:00

Cryptic words meander
Now there is a song beneath the song
One day you'll learn
You'll soon discern its true meaning

An interesting detachment
A listless poem of love sincere
Desire, despair
Overlapping melodies

And it's not a love, it's not a love
It's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song

Oh now the roots are reminiscing
Recurring dreams of minor chords
Metred time
Muted chimes find the beat

And in the pulse there lies conviction
A steady push and pull routine
The cymbals swell
High notes flail into reach

And it's not a love, it's not a love
It's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song

I love the lyrics to this song! Grey's Anatomy Love :)

#1395: Be Merciful

2011-09-01T23:46:00.003+08:00

Learnt this about myself yesterday:

That it's ok if some people cause me to lose control and make me want to love them, be it friends or more, 'cos otherwise I'd just be rational and logical and cold. And I've spent enough of my life being all that, kinda. There's beauty in being compelled to drop everything you're doing for someone even if it's not the best thing to do at that point in time.

Emotions can be a wonderful thing. I think I am growing up.

#1394: LOL LANVIN

2011-08-30T21:28:00.001+08:00

#1393: Hurt comes in many forms

2011-08-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

So does evil. A businessman is a businessman.

#1392: Lamenting about something I thought I'd never lament

2011-08-29T14:28:00.003+08:00

I miss playing soccer. -.-

It's been a good 4 years since we played soccer back in RG for our PE module. Secret: Actually I never really hated PE that much if not for the annual 2.4km run. And then there was the unsatisfying soccer we played in RJ in a "rink" with a ball so light one literally had to somersault to kick.

Guess it kinda sucks that soccer is a group game. How to find so many ~~people~~ girls??

Shouldn't have washed my ball-printed PE shirt back then hahaha, so I can prove that I was right where the ball was heading. LOL! Like a loser.

#1391: Drinking coke at this hour (3am) is just insane, like eating ice-cream for breakfast.

2011-08-28T02:53:00.001+08:00

#1390: WTF CLS PRESENTATION NEXT SATURDAY?!

2011-08-28T02:34:00.002+08:00

*ANGST* And prof got the groupings mixed up!!

#1389: A space of my own in school

2011-08-27T11:49:00.003+08:00

I finally got down to getting a locker in school. It feels good now that I have a place to safe-keep my belongings considering how I've always felt that SMU's environment is too public.

#1388: 'Cos there's beauty in the breakdown

2011-08-26T01:00:00.001+08:00

#1387: Thanks Bhu :)

2011-08-25T09:19:00.001+08:00

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.

— The Painted Drum, Louise Erdrich

#1386: Zheng Pei knows me too well

2011-08-25T00:01:00.003+08:00

The other day I dragged Zheng Pei along to collect my free sample of some Dr Weil's product from the ORIGINS counter only to realise that it was only valid the next day.

Today Zheng Pei sweetly whatsapped me the image for the upcoming macs promotion and kindly reminded me that it only starts on the 26th. (Knowing me, I could have jolly well not noticed lol!)

I just completed my FA quiz for the first week and thought it would be a brilliant idea to do this week's altogether. So I went a-clicking and happily ignored the start-end dates only to be greeted with a "Quiz Period Not Started". Awesome.

Some things just don't change, do they? :p

#1385: Embracing vulnerability

2011-08-23T19:50:00.012+08:00

Polly posted a video on how accepting vulnerability is necessary to live a fulfilling life. So I think I'm gonna do exactly that today.

I am vulnerable and very fragile and extremely out-of-sorts lately. I don't remember when the last time I felt like I was a walking time bomb awaiting my explosion was, but it's definitely been a while.

I've been living under a veil of optimism since the last time I was very down last summer, only because I have awesome friends who give me incredible support at times when I just wanna give up and shrink away from life and the disappointments that come with it.

And also because I have always perceived living outside of one's rationality and treading in the realms of emotions as a weakness. Which is why I never ever discuss how I feel about anything. I don't feel, I just observe/state, everything is a matter of fact. When I do feel, it comes from a 3rd person's perspective - how a hypothetical person would react in my situation; it's never about me, it's always about the average/normal person. It's about measuring emotional reaction to a yard stick of reasonability and only when it's reasonable does one's right to feel/react arise. And this bad habit has conditioned me into someone who acts as if everything is fine when clearly something is brewing inside of me, something that I choose to ignore is growing from within. Because I don't see why I should subject anyone to the irregularities and unpredictability of emotions, or my emotions. This is emotional constipation at its purest. So right now, when I'm feeling for you, I'm just.. lost.

I've always been that sort of person who can psycho myself into thinking that I enjoy what I do, that everything is interesting, that people deserve the benefit of the doubt. But right now, I just need time off from being optimistic and cheery. What with complications that are beyond my comprehension.. And Consti is just seriously not my thing.

I'm vulnerable so don't even try.

#1384: 'Cos I'm not quite ready to blog about Breathe just yet

2011-08-23T00:36:00.003+08:00

b. Ethics has no place in accounting, since accounting deals purely with numbers.

c. It is impossible to learn ethical decision making, since it is just something you decide to do or not to do.

d. Ethics is becoming less and less important as a field of study in business.

So badass, I love it. Options b & c being my personal favourites. :D

#1383: The Merryman article

2011-08-22T13:04:00.002+08:00

Though not the main point of the article (duh 'cos it's on comparative law scholarship haha), this phrase is still extremely quotable:

... clever, learned people will always find clever, learned things to say about anything they study...

Booya.

#1382: I see nothing worse than to sail this universe without you

2011-08-21T17:41:00.002+08:00

I present thee, yet another sex song.

We are stars,

Fashioned in the flesh and bone,
We are islands,
Excuses to remain alone,
We are moons,
Throw ourselves around each other,
We are oceans,
Being controlled by the pull of another.

And I just wanna be loved by you,
Yeah I just wanna be loved by you,
I see nothing worse than to sail this universe without you.

When we met,
I was pulling an angel out of a liar,
We forget,
Satisfaction kills our desire,
We are dreamers,
Wishing upon what we were born from,
We made plans,
Kill them ourselves,
And then we mourn them.

And I just wanna be loved by you,
Yeah I just wanna be loved by you,
I see nothing worse than to sail this universe without you.

And I just wanna be loved by you,
Yeah I just wanna be loved by you,
I see nothing worse than to sail this universe without you.
(I just wanna be loved by you)
I see nothing worse than to sail this universe without you.
(I just wanna be loved by you)
I see nothing worse than to sail this universe without you,
Without you.

#1381: Jet Lag - Simple Plan

2011-08-21T12:34:00.004+08:00

My heart heart heart is so jet lagged. Gosh this song is so catchy! First heard when the soccer girls sang this for VIVACE's Sing-Off.

#1380: My Stomach, Last Warning

2011-08-19T01:31:00.003+08:00

2 on the left were mine, 2 on the right were Zhengz's.

From the day I had a very very bad stomachache.

#1379: Man seeks refund after romance fails

2011-08-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

WIDOWER Chan Kok Sang, an accountant in his 60s, courted real estate agent Caroline Tong (left) in style. Now the couple have split up, he is suing her for a sum reflecting the value of the gifts and other expenditures. The following were the items he bought her, and their cost:

Property purchase deposits: $74,095.56
Cost of producing her VCDs: $79,200
Dental charges: $3,000
Money transfers: $11,638.35
Loan for purchase of Mercedes: $21,324.67
Beds and cupboards: $8,367.40
Watches: $34,003.70
Spa treatments: $4,911.80
Notebook, iPad and similar items: $6,686
Louis Vuitton, Burberry and Gucci goods: $21,430.25
Jewellery: $90,688
Miscellaneous items, including clothes from boutiques and facials: $41,836.69

Click here for the article.

But epic. An accountant is an accountant.

#1378: The Magical Equation

2011-08-18T00:41:00.010+08:00

Today was an above-average day and it started early.

I spent 10am-12pm doing my booth duty at the (illegal) Voix booth with my late I/C, Elvin (cough IS Bash cough), and the ever self-sacrificial Justin, who had to be self-sacrificial anyway since neither of us had access to the storeroom. Haha and I was acting bitter over how Elvin was made in charge of me instead of the other way round when there were only the two of us. :p There was this bit of our conversation which I thought was particularly funny. Justin asked the two of us if we were gonna run for exco and we dismissed the idea almost immediately. I asserted that for every word he reads, I have to read ten. And this was followed by Elvin's remark that for every button Justin presses, he had to press ten. HAHA!

Anyway more Voix folks came to join us after a while and I went off to get aglio olio from Tea Party for lunch (2nd time in 2 days gosh) with Malcolm who was trying it for the first time. I guess this was the first time I've ever really talked to Malcolm for more than a second since I joined Voix lol.

Anyway the combination of aglio olio, tabasco sauce, strepsils and 3 cups of tea totally did my stomach in eventually. It left me queasy and cold during FA and more. I ended up having to eat dinner twice, which doesn't make sense. Since when was an inexplicable hunger a result of an overdose of strepsils and tea?

Plus, I have FA God for prof. She could blow my mind with her clarity, smartness and logic. Or maybe I'm just giving her too much credit for giving out a hard copy of her syllabus to each of us in class? :D I'm sorry but you never ever receive papers from profs in law classes.

And it's been a while since I blogged with such detailed narration, really. Words and I have not been clicking these days, we still don't but we might get along.

And CTeo's virgin mambo night tonight. :)

#1377: Act yi ge hot

2011-08-15T00:01:00.002+08:00

I'm so pleased with how this photo turned out. Super act yi ge hot LOL.

BUT I didn't purposely stand like that! This was on timer mode and accidental.

#1376: Summer ends (read: angst)

2011-08-13T17:36:00.006+08:00

I realised I would have been in Zouk 3x this week if I actually had the time to attend Flea&Easy this afternoon lol, had it not been for Voix practice. But omg, I didn't realise how much my eye liner smudged on Friday night until I went home and got a bad shock in the mirror. LOL Charmaine's MAC liquid eye liner speaks for itself, though I must say I was super grateful that she lent it to me or I would look un-made up during the competition. And it reminded me that black eye liner is always flattering (when unsmudged lol).

My havaianas broke during practice today so I had to fix the two broken pieces together with this pin that I found on the wall of the MDL. (I'm so good at DIY that I can totally survive a war.) But frankly, I was so upset that something so costly (though I don't quite recall how much I paid for it) would break so soon. But thank goodness, the make-do pin held everything together snugly enough that I could still walk over to Raffles City to get it repaired and who knew, THEY WILL REPAIR IT AT NO CHARGE! :D (Three cheers for good customer service!) But I couldn't send mine in eventually 'cos that'd mean I'd have to make my way home on bare feet which isn't very wise. Plus, I was definitely not interested in buying another pair in the store.

Zi Yao says he's giving a big party a miss to come for my concert!! :') I'm so touched. :')

We had dinner at Delifrance tonight. Delifrance never fails to disappoint, seriously.

#1375: PHUTURE

2011-08-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

#1374: HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SOLDIER

2011-08-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

jiahong says: (11:57:09 PM)
life has much more than friends and r/s
jiahong says: (11:57:10 PM)
:P
joey says: (11:57:24 PM)
aiya not like i don't know
joey says: (11:58:02 PM)
life has much more than friends and r/s, life has ARMY
jiahong says: (11:58:27 PM)
:D
joey says: (11:58:53 PM)
gosh totally in the right mood for national day huh
jiahong says: (11:59:01 PM)
no
joey says: (11:59:01 PM)
2 more mins
jiahong says: (11:59:02 PM)
its different
jiahong says: (11:59:04 PM)
totally
jiahong says: (11:59:04 PM)
<.<
joey says: (12:00:20 AM)
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY
joey says: (12:00:23 AM)
SOLDIER

#1373: Catching Up

2011-08-07T22:29:00.004+08:00

Haven't talked to Jiahong in a million years. And we can't do Monday lunch because Yao, who's typically too busy for us can't make it, and I have Voix. And Cheryl ~~has no citibank card?~~ IS IN KL. SIGH no sashimi, chawanmushi, SOBA.

Haha I do miss the good old times when we used to transfer music to each other (and my internet connection would suck so bad), when we bitched about annoying people, when I was bored to death 'cos I felt bad talking to people when they were mugging for prelims/As or when I was on internship, when we were supposed to go to Cebu together for our ISLE (epic fail).

And lol, the drama in army is seriously hilarious but poor thing, you're really quite unfortunate. :p But, 4 more months to ORD?

#1372: 6 August

2011-08-06T22:47:00.004+08:00

When I walk on eggshells, I feel so fucking insane. Like I need tons of tea so that I can attribute the palpitation of my heart to a biological reaction, I wanna sleep awake, I wanna just throw my consciousness aside and come back when I get an answer. Why is this everything but easy? Why am I killing myself?

23 July was a Saturday. And so is today.

#1371: Totally cannot attend AG Cup 2011 semi-finals 'cos it's competition day. SIGH.

2011-08-06T21:52:00.001+08:00

#1370: Voixever

2011-08-06T21:06:00.004+08:00

I finally bought my costume for the competition - a pair of attention-grabbing pink pants, which I ended up loving so much more than the flare skirt below. I probably own too many flare skirts already but ahhh one more won't hurt, right? :p

Gosh it's so cute! It's very much like a shorter version of the character skirt from ballet though. :(

Anyway that's the story of what I didn't get. I can't seem to find a picture of the pants I bought so you'll just have to meet me at the right time to see it! OR come for our concert! :D

It's less than a week to competition! It's not about the money money money, we don't need your money money money, we just wanna make the world dance, forget about the price tag. ~

An all-girls a cappella group is really very pretty; I don't mean it in the physical sense of the word, but rather in the pretty-delicate-feminine way. Oh well, duh it's feminine. And as much as all the practices tire me to the bones (and seriously all the crunches during warmups -.- last warning), I'm still really glad I'm part of this. I would never expect to be so dedicated to something non-academic in uni at all, ever. Do you know how to spell dedication? HAHA, inside joke.

And I realised that I really do enjoy dancing, even if it's basic dance moves for our choreo or just going nuts bouncing and jumping to music. And the enjoyment is brought to the next level when you do it in heels lol! Oh the joys of clubbing huh hahaha!

#1369: Welcome to my world of lyrics-gone-wrong

2011-08-06T01:57:00.002+08:00

The first time I heard the Empire State of Mind chorus, it went down like that:

In New York, concrete jungle wet dreams are made of,

There's nothing you can't do, now you're in New York,

These streets will make you feel brand new,

Big lights will inspire you, Now here it for New York,

New York, New York

Like WHAT?!

#1368: What do you do?

2011-08-06T00:43:00.005+08:00

When an old crush asks you out... one summer too late? SIAN MAX.

#1367: Joo I love you so much but we have no time to meet. :(

2011-08-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

#1366: Girls Night Out ♡

2011-08-04T17:33:00.006+08:00

Polly, Bhuvan and I could finally meet last Tuesday because someone's finally back!! :D So that was the night I had Thai food for the 3rd time in 5 days, if I counted correctly? Which could have very well turned out to be my 3rd phad thai in 5 days, but no, I decided to get basil chicken instead! Haha we dined at this restaurant in The Dodgy Orchard Towers, after which we proceeded to (the new?) PS Cafe at Palais for dessert.

The ambience of both places were two extreme ends on a scale, seriously. Orchard Towers oozed "Slut Fest" by night and casual sex was in the air. PS Cafe, on the other hand, was just freaking awesome. The kind of place that can help you score extra gazillion brownie points on a first date.. but will leave your pocket empty for the coming week? But still, an awesome place for desserts. We had this banana butterscotch cake thing with ice-cream, an iced chocolate and Polly had a wild berry martini (which I felt tasted very much like medicine oops). :)

Actually I'm still thinking of the Nutella Pie from Everything With Fries, though I'm not much of a chocolate/nutella person. Maybe my India trip developed my fondness for nutella/my perception of nutella as a luxury good.

But I'm also very much reminded by how the burgers and the neverending supply of fries left Cheryl and I too bloated to do anything. HAHA, everytime we go out we stuff ourselves crazy or something?

#1365: Hot girl!!

2011-08-03T00:38:00.001+08:00

Need I say more? Hot girl!!

#1364: We are so old 'cos this was like our J1 song

2011-07-31T18:41:00.004+08:00

Haha this was playing during dance warmups today! It totally brought me back to J1. OMG so much NOSTALGIA lately haha!

And as Wenyi kindly reminded me, this one too:

TATA YOUNG
"I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy,
Just like all my thoughts they tend to be a bit naughty,
When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy,
Can't change the way I am,
Sexy naughty bitchy me."

Haha I have so many music entries lately too. Oops?

#1363: Like a Voix camp 2

2011-07-30T22:37:00.004+08:00

9am - 9pm worth of Voix today. I was so exhausted from all the dancing by the time afternoon came. D: And we still had to stay to sing even more.. D: D: D: D: NO MORE LIFE EVEN BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS. :'( :'( Love, hate and angst sigh.

On a happier note, BHUVAN IS COMING HOME SOON! :D

OH and it's Ziyao's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~~to my bitchiest friend ever~~! :)

#1362: Pple get tattoo, I also want. But no balls.

2011-07-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

Nah, it isn't really about not having the guts to be inked but I think I just can't handle the permanence of a tattoo. Besides, I have not found any image or quote I will find myself particularly attached to in the following years (or anyone, even HAHA), as much as I like to toy with the idea of having birds soar across the side of my body, or finding ink surprises behind my ear. And, it's just too cheesy to literally make my life philosophy a part of me.

AU NATUREL.

I don't even know why I chose these words; I just thought of them, googled the spelling and started writing on myself with a pilot pen lol. It's not even anything like my handwriting.

By the end of this entry, I decided to remove it. It was just too lame.

#1361: Have You Heard (yet another underrated Katy Perry song)?

2011-07-26T22:51:00.003+08:00

The song has an OPI nail polish named after it whoo! (which I don't own.. No, this blog isn't about nail polish and materialism. :) )

Lovin' the youth and innocence of this song.

#1360: The CUTEST emailer ever!!

2011-07-26T22:27:00.003+08:00

Courtesy of HQ. :) HAHA we were laughing so hard when Redgie received this today in school. I love it! :p This totally makes up for the social life Voix's gonna suck out of me the coming weeks to concert+competition hahaha.

Anyway Arts Camp, rumoured to be the best smu camp after Bondue, was today. It was basically hours and hours of singing the same mashups over and over again - Stand By Me, Beautiful Girl & Just The Way You Are/Forget You. The latter is totally a player's mashup-of-choice 'cos those two songs are so conceptually different; Forget You The Way You Are, enough said. Or it could be Fuck You The Way You Are, depending on which version you sing. :p

Anyway some memorable performances were by the group that included the Taylor Swift song at the end and the crazy clubbing group that "personified" Shots with their shorts, like literally, "Shorts shorts shorts shorts shorts" hahaha.

And of course, spending quality time with cca mates pouring our hearts out in song(s). :)

#1359: Fake Nfu Oh (nail polish) from Msia that does the job anyway

2011-07-26T01:13:00.004+08:00

My fingers, the single skinniest part of my body, and my favourite shimmery polish so far! It's almost matte-ish. :D I LOVE IT AND I DON'T CARE IF IT'S AN IMITATION GOOD.

#1358: Omg Singtel LOL

2011-07-26T00:50:00.003+08:00

I just read on Singapore Law Watch that Singtel has been fined for selling sex games. 2 of 11 games featured rape and bestiality. WTH! The games included titles such as Pamela Sexy Poker - where an animated character Pamela appears completely naked when a player wins a poker game - and Pearls for Stacy, a puzzle game requiring players to collect pearls.

Have you been playing them? :O

#1357: Suade!!!

2011-07-25T10:55:00.002+08:00

Ah can't believe we met them last year for a workshop. :3 This is so good! Haha we're singing Nobody for our concert too. :p Thanks Feli for sharing. :D

#1356: SKYPE - on whether I'm secretly emotional like Spencer Reid

2011-07-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

polly:
as in you feel more than people think?
joey:
haha
oh no
nah, i don't think i feel more than pple think
polly
like some ppl are really not easily bothered or feel about certain stuff
joey
selectively, perhaps?
polly
selectively ?
as in ?
joey
like i think the environment we grow up in affects what we care for
polly
so what do you care for
hahaha
joey
haha
um equality
polly
hhahhhaha sounds like national day pledge
joey
yeah and universal brotherhood
LOL
polly
HAHAHA
joey
omg this should go on my blog
polly
hahahhahahah i'd like it
if i could

#1355: School and stuff

2011-07-24T10:56:00.006+08:00

Whoo I finally printed out my class schedule for the next sem - Y2S1. GOSH we are year 2s, sophomores. (Everything I've learnt about the names of different levels of uni students, I learnt from X-Men.) Anyway as usual I'm terrible at navigating OASIS and this is evidenced by my initial inability to even CHECK my bidding results when they were out. But it doesn't discount the fact that I'm such an awesome bidder. Hehe ;)

Voix Updates (Not-So-Subtle Hint: Please come for our awesome concert.)
Voix practice yesterday was insane. It was totally like a half-day Voix camp, since the competition girls basically learnt the choreo for 3 songs - Price Tag (competition), Circle of Life (voix combined song) (gosh damn hilarious to dance alongside HQ -- the farming/military crawling/POW move) & Lady Gaga Medley (voix small group).
I ♥ ♥ ♥ Voix. :D Gaga was rather hard though; we have to get the moves right and clean while try to ooze sex appeal haha WHILE SINGING RANDOM BEATS. ?!?! Speaking of which, I still can't juggle dancing and singing Toxic. D:

Anyway I've moved on from watching serious shows like Criminal Minds to frivolous ANTM Cycle 14. Oh dear, regression at its peak this summer yo. And contrary to popular belief (of my frivolity?), I've never watched ANTM until now. Like y'know I ain't watching nothing that flings sex appeal in my face? :p HAHA KIDDING, this coming from a person who appreciates um.. The L Word?

Grey's Anatomy Season 8, I'm waiting for thee. :)

#1354: Every step we make is just another step backwards.

2011-07-23T22:24:00.002+08:00